You could say that I'm sad that it didn't work out.
Now I'm left with that old familiar feeling of doubt. Doubt and the fear that I might not ever find what I'm looking for. Does it even exist?
You fall in love and you're supposed to be together forever. Well, that’s what I thought. It turns out that life and love are complicated and you can't always make it work. You can try and pray as much as you possibly can, but it doesn't always end with a happily ever after. It took me 22 years to find love and it took me a long time to accept the fact that what I wanted the most, wasn’t meant to be. Now what?
Bad dates. So many bad dates. Then great dates. Delicious dinners. Nice wine. Fancy vacations. At the end of all those dates (good or bad) I always find myself worrying. Analyzing everything. Over thinking and terrified that I'll end up with the wrong one. What if I choose the wrong person? It's not like a car, that can be switched out. Or a bad hair day that will eventually come to an end. It's your partner FOR LIFE. Heaven help me.
I’m not very good at taking the time to be social. Sure I have friends, but I've never been the type of girl to have someone around all the time. I don't think I really want someone around 24/7. My somewhat extreme independence means that when I'm in a serious relationship, that person is my best friend. When the relationship ends, I lose my best friend. I think that's the part that hurts the most. Well, that and realizing that not everyone has good intentions. Not everyone is honest. In a world of endless options, dating has become a bit like my dream wardrobe. Never-ending.
So this is where I am today. I need to keep these things in mind:
Trust in the Lord.
Trust in His plan.
Trust in His timing.
Don't doubt yourself.
Don't fall for someone's potential (if you've never listened to Danielle Bradbery’s song Potential, you need to).
Try to be more understanding and less selfish.
Dating is difficult, but I won't give up. Not yet. So, bring on the bad dates.
Last week I asked the following question: What color eyeshadow looks best on people with dark brown eyes? I think I've used some shade of champagne, ivory, or gold since the 7th grade. It was time for a change. Quite a few people reached out and told me to try purple. I headed to NorthPark to find purple eyeshadow. After looking at a few different options, I decided to try Mac, Ready to Party. It's a light shade of purple, almost lilac. I used it for church this morning for the first time and it's really pretty. What color eye shadow do you use?
The hat is from Preston & Olivia. It's available in MineralGreen, DesertSand, or Azalea.
This t-shirt has almost 300 reviews. The reviews and the great price made me buy it in neon pink almost three years ago. I bought that pink t-shirt and a pair of silver pants to wear together for a weekend getaway. Looking back...maybe the neon pink and silver combo was a bit much. That’s ok. I was really proud of that outfit. Fast forward a few years and here I am with the same shirt, different color. I tried to go with a neutral this time. Less neon, ya know? It’s on sale right now for $17 if you use the code HOORAY when you check out. The warm canary option is cute, and so is deep peri. Of course they have it in black, white, and grey. Hope you have a wonderful weekend!
This highlighter is on my list of things to try. The highlighter I use now doubles as my eye shadow. I keep waiting for it to run out, but it's not even close.
I like the idea of this Free People trench paired with shorts and sneakers.
I never was a fan of Anthropologie shoes until this season. These oxfords could be fun for the office. I'm going to make a poll this week on my Insta stories so you can help me decide which color to get.
I tried on this strawberry print silk dress when I was at Nordstrom last weekend and it's adorable! They also have a top with the same strawberry print.
Don't judge this next pair too harshly, at least not until you see the silver option. Just click on the picture below and look at the silver pair. They're so cute and have great reviews. I don't know why the pink pair looks funny.
I got these shoes for my birthday. They were a gift from my Mom and Dad. Mom had texted me a picture of them one weekend and I'm pretty sure I sent her about 1200 heart emojis in response. I didn't think I would actually get them for my birthday. I was surprised and so excited when I opened my presents. Aren't they adorable?
I found these next three pairs on sale for only $50, $40, and $30:
Have you ever received a fun pair of shoes for your birthday of for Christmas?
Good news: You can now buy Reformation clothes at Nordstrom! This is cool because it means you can try on items in store right here in Texas. Nordstrom also has curb side pickup (order online, call when you get there, and they bring it to your car) which saves so much time.